Wednesday, September 29, 2010

"You are A Dizzy Bitch"

Hello Jazzlovers...

Another Beautiful Day in Beautiful Bahrain...

" You are a diiizzzzy Biitcchh"! My Mother once said to me in the way only a Southern Lady can!! It brought me up sharp because my Mother had never called me out of my name...I had often heard her call my sister a "Borrowed face heifer " for reasons that are for my sister to tell....But for me it was the first made an impact...The situation was, it was a holiday and we were at my sisters house, ( I think Christmas) I had just turned 20 a couple of weeks before.My sisters oldest son was about 6 years old and had been give a drum set for Christmas..We were in the den and dancing to old school, when I realised that my Nephew was playing along with the music..I stopped in mid step to listen!!!when I heard  " You are a diiizzzzy Biitcchh"! Big maybelle

It only took me a second to realize family was by now acoustomed to my oddities, but my brother in laws family were not and all of them were looking at me with smirks..My mother was very protective of me..But I know it was not the situation we were in at the time that caused her to say this to me...And today i know she was right. I feel I have walked through life with blinders on as to what others see in me..I now realize how lucky I have been in my innocence I realize just how good God has been  to me.. Nellie Lutcher

One of the most amazing moments in my life was the moment I realilized that the thing I most wanted in life I would never have. ("Hope springs eternal" for some,),Yet there is that moment when you know that it is futile! Either you give up or aim in another direction, I chose the latter. Now is the time for me...What would make me happy? Now is the time to celebrate myself. Dream a little dream

The thing I wanted the most was love,that all consuming passion,that sharing,that hunger when seperated,that delight of looking into someone's eyes and seeing yourself reflected..You know the love I am talking about!
The day I realized it is not going to happen was the most dificult day of my life, It is when you ask your self the question "what's left? The answer is I still have me and I will move on and make myself happy! It is not about what other people think of you, it is how you love yourself... Etta James

So you see my Mother was right and if stopping in mid step to listen is confusing to others,( "Out of Confusion comes Understanding")Then I wear the Label Dizzy Bitch well...

Thanks Mom..  Feeling Good Randy Crawford..

Well Jazzlovers Until next time.

Keep the beat..

DW Jazzlover


  1. Deep entry, man. Maybe in life we all have to surrender some dreams, some desires, some of what we imagined would be our fate.... & learn to embrace & appreciate that which remains behind. However, Real Love (The Mary J version) is not an impossibility. Because The Creator has a Plan for each of us, certain things we can not & will not know absolutely for sure. But you're right about the importance of Self-Love.
    It's imperative!

    Suggestion for another video: "The Greatest Love Of All" (the George Benson version).


  2. Thank you and I know you speak truth...

  3. @Moanerplicity, I like the music you referenced, but my thoughts come when I am listening to the music I add in the blog becuase it is what triggers a memory and a thought. and that is what I write about..But you suggestions are just Great!! Thanks...I am sure there are future blogs with it.. I love Mary J..

  4. Hey, Jazzlover, am I reading this right, you gave up on love or finding love, like forever?

  5. HI Thomas, LOL no I am not giving up just not waiting arounnd for it..It will have to be cave man style!! It will have to hit me over the head..I have just put it out of my active mind..But No Dear Friend I will never stop beliving in Love...

  6. Oh, o.k., you had me worried for a moment, I was getting ready to pull out my lecture book, LOL!

    Well, they say things turn up when you least expect them or exactly when you are not looking for them. Cheers!

  7. This is truly an insight I can very well relate to. We reach a time when second best will simply not cut it. At that time one is instantly marooned. Waiting for the rescue, when it arrives seize it with both hands and hold on the ride still may be bumpy.
    Loved this post D. I would have given anything to have met your Mother, she must have been one amazing lady!

  8. Thanks Alan, My Mother was a remarkable woman..You two would have definitly been friends!!! LOL

  9. Thomas, I had to go back and read to see how I left out the essence of the post and realized I left out an important line at the end..LOL and a big smile!! Thanks T