Finding My Way Home

Thoughts!


Hello Jazzlovers,

I have been away for a very long time. I hope you have not  forgotten me but it has been ragingstorm for the last 6 months and there as been very little music running through my head. So let me try to tell you about it, just the fact that I am sitting here writing this post is a Mirical with in it's self... I went in for some test and woke up from a coma 4 days later!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-MI7NEwIaJE


Now  in a coma a person can hear everything being said you just cannot respond, I heard the Dr. Say D-----P-----  will die tonighr..So I waited to die amazingly there was no fear,(I belive the journey just continues at a different level) But I did not die that night, I don't know if it was the first night or the 3rd night because I woke up on the 4th day wirh my best friend sitting by my bedside....


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjgWly1dVDI

Nine Months later I am home with my Family and I feel fine...My Family have been remarkable in their Love and Care of me,,,My Thing have arrived and Iam seeting up my room as I like..so I am surronded by things I love..I am back in the area I grew up inand friends are so great in their joy of seeing me once more..It is Fantastic...I am also accepted just as I am now....But in the past I feltlike a "Stranger on This Earth"


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FMmolZG_j_c


So Jazzlovers Life is really for the Living and as the Old Folks use to say "Just keep Living Sugah" And "Never say Never". I am Very happy right now..I do miss my friends but a Group of us plan to meet in Amsterday{My Favorite City in The whole World}this summer..so there is something always to look forward to....!!!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkWMdux53-Q


Well Jazzlovers I leave you with Love..and Miss Della Reese...My Favorite Song...Never give up on Love...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5WVBkNez4bU&feature=relmfu


Well Jazzlovers until Next time ,

Keep the bear!

D W  Jazzlover.....

Whitney Houston Is Gone on to Glory

Hello Jazzlovers.

I just wanted to add my voice to those saying goodbye to one of our greatest singers. Ms Whitney Houston.
I found her service to be very moving and I too shed some tears for One gone too soon...But we don't know God's Plan...
She will be greatly missed...
Rest now in piece now Whitney...

Much Love..

DW Jazzlover....

Music is My Life

Dear Jazzlovers,
I am back for a while, There are a few things I want to discuss about my recent brush with leaving this earth...But not on my music blog,,,So I will be starting a new Blog to write abourt the experience......so I will be starting a new Blog which is why I need to know which of these 2 you are getting

I will continue to keeep this one about the Music..I had started another dw jazzlover blog and thought I had beleted this one,,,So I am posting the same message on both Blogs With an Different Etta Jamrs song, Please let me know which one comes through as still here!!!

Love and miss you all...

I will Post the link to the Life Blog I am starting on the next  Post, I am working on Copy right issues right now,,,

Until Next time Jazzlovers Keep the beat!!

DW Jazzlover

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ADDigK8LwyE&feature=results_main&playnext=1&list=PL9880AA998DE07E8B


Until Next time Jazzlovers let me hear from you...

Langston Hughes

Bahrain


Hello JazzLovers

This is my Mood today....

Langston Hughes'


Mother to Son


Well, son, I'll tell you:

Life for me ain't been no crystal stair.

It's had tacks in it,

And splinters,

And boards torn up,

And places with no carpet on the floor --

Bare.

But all the time

I'se been a-climbin' on,

And reachin' landin's,

And turnin' corners,

And sometimes goin' in the dark

Where there ain't been no light.

So boy, don't you turn back.

Don't you set down on the steps

'Cause you finds it's kinder hard.

Don't you fall now --

For I'se still goin', honey,

I'se still climbin',

And life for me ain't been no crystal stair.





Until Next time Jazzlovers
 
Keep the beat..
 
DW JazzLover..

Creativity By Alan Ashley Pitt

A Beautiful Memory

A Very Cold, Wet and Beautiful Day Here.


Hello JazzLovers

Here is where I am today!!!


 Creativity




The person who follows the crowd will usually get no further than the crowd. The one who walks alone is likely to find himself in places no one has ever been before.



Creativity in living is not without its attendant difficulties, for peculiarity breeds contempt. And the unfortunate thing about being ahead of your time is that when people finally realize you were right, they’ll say it was obvious all along.



You have two choices in your life; you can dissolve into the mainstream, or you can be distinct. To be distinct, you must be different, to be different, you must strive to be what no one else but you can be.



Alan Ashley-Pitt.

 
Well Jazz Lovers,
 
Until next time!
 
Keep the beat..
 
 
DW JazzLover....

Happy New Year and Other Hype Which is Life?

Dusted living room!!


Hello Jazz Lovers a Sand Storm Day In Bahrain....


I say often that life is a facinating journey and it reminds me often!! I woke up and got an early morning laugh at just how funny life can be....My group of friends and I did our New years Ever gathering  Thursday Night because here they double the prices on New Years Eve, for the same old thing...We had a wonderful evening...Well I spent New years Eve cleaning the house from top to bottom...( I have a friend arriving for a month tomorrow..) My Friend Martyn did the same......Well this Morning we woke up to a Major Dust Storm!!!! Now everything is covered with enough dust to grow plants!!Martyn was upset to say the least !! I just had a good laugh...Because jazz Lovers that is really life!!! But if anyone thinks I am going to dust once more !!!!No Way, I will say to my friend Welcome to Bahrain!!!

I trully enjoyed the cleaning  yesterday, it was reflection time... I thought a lot about things and about the past and had some good Jazz going so it was a great day....Resolutions?? NoWay that is one of the things I have learned..a resolution is only good the day you make it!! I went to bed early and set the alarm for 11:50 PM, I woke up poured a glass of wine and waited until 2 minutes to 12 and called my new love, I wanted it to be the last voice I heard in 2010 and the first I heard in 2011, I am a hopeless romantic!!! Went back to bed and woke up to a dust storm and a belly laugh....Life is an amazing journey.."The best laid plans"etc..

So Jazz lovers I start this year with much Joy in my heart because I have learned you can not plan life you just have to live it..and be open to what ever it brings you way...This Universe is an amazing place to be...embrace it and enjoy every minute, spread love and it will definitly come back to you!!! I have Friends all over the world that I love and they love me just as i am...I have so much to be grateful for and that is the feeling I am bringing into 2011...Where even a dust storm is beautiful...

Now i need to finish my blackeyed peas!!

Recomendations:

Dianne Reeves   "That Day"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3j8L6wKpQA&feature=related  Better days!

Truth!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NhguVNWoj3k    Ain't Nobody's buisness if I do!!

Well Jazz Lovers

Until Next Time,,,

Keep the beat!!


Happy New Year!!!!


DW Jazzlover

Coming Out Part 2 Continued On Lifes incredable Journey

One of Dr. Kinsey's most well known theories is the "Heterosexual/ Homosexual Rating Scale," which rates a person's homosexuality or heterosexuality on a 7-point continuum.



Dr.Kinseys study is well worth a read...


Another beautiful day In Bahrain

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQ8XkY6Too0

Hello Jazzlovers,

I am speaking from my heart today..A heart filled with Joy!!

Continuing with the statement people make you lie...Peope start you to lying at a very early age...Men I would like you to remember your first lesson, that maybe something was wrong with you!! mine came when I was 5 years old,( I have something even until today ,something unusual, I all upstairs! most people  falldownstairs) well one day when I was about 5, my stepfather was rushing me ,and a lot of homes in Louisiana  have high porches with 4 to 6 or more steps to the porch. So while rushing up the steps I  fell up the steps and cut my knee very badly, it was bleeding very much and I started to cry, My stepfather shouted at me "shut up boys don't cry! Now i feared my stepfather with everything in me,He was a very bitter brutal man. I remember thinking as i looked down at my bleeding knee,I knew I wanted to cry, and my thought was I am a boy, I hurt,and I am a boy ! "what is wrong with me?

Now trust me this story holds no emotional scars for me,because now I understand it, ( I made peace with that little mans image a long time ago.)The story is just an example of how societies insecurities are passed on.( But I often wonder where his pain started)  that was the day I learned to hide, to hide my emotions , to hide my truths!.

My Grandmother died in 1979, i had just arrived home for her birthday on a visit from San Fransicco, and she had a stroke just the next day. My Grandmothe loved me just as I was,and on her deathbed she made me promist to come home for at least 3 years.....Those were the longest 3 years of my life..!!!! You can never go back and as I have mentiond San Fransico had given me an illusion of freedom. I could not step back into the person that had left years before. So I lived an open double life, outwardly I lived a very wild image of who everyone thought I was...privatly I lived a very solitary life,( I did not answer the 3am knocked on the door!)  Everything around me was so superficial, the good thing about that superficiality was that it was something I knew....and did not have to live it (the elephant in the room).

It was the perfect time in my life for soul searching, for finding myself, because I was really lost..My Grandmother was a very wise woman..Coming out is a lifetime journey!!! I was 17 years old the first time  a man asked me if I was gay! I knew nothing about the word or what it implied, so my answer was yes because i thought he was asking if I was happy!!! But Jazzlovers I earned that night what it really was!!!Thank you Mr. Vagun, You are someone I will always remember as a sweet,  sweet man...

Much of the discussion on "Gay Life" is based on other peoples percetions of who gay people are....I attended the very first gay march on washington in 1987 and if anyone becomes honest and publish the actually numbers they would realize that Mr Kinsey had it right...There were 1.5 million same loving gender people there, and they looked just like everyone else in this country.....Of course the media focused on their own view of who we are....the fringe!!

I did not ask for this this gift but some how I found that God does not make mistakes and I have a loving heart and no one defines me but God..And since I can not lie to God I am no longer going to lie to man...nor will I allow anyone to define me but me....I don't have to act a certain way, I don't have to fit a type,I am not what you see in the media!! I look just like you.....and when i say I am a Man that loves men I mean just that..I have had wonderful love in my life and I can count them on one hand..

I speak for no one but me,,,But I know the journey to wholeness is not easy for anyone living a lie..I am so blessed to find myself in this serious  world of hipocrocy...and Jazz lovers My heart is filled with Joy..Iam intellegent, smart, Talented,and have wonderful people in my life that loves me just as I am..I am spiritual, and love the Creator of this Universe with every fiber of my being..I am Not A Gay Man...I am a Black Man who Loves Black Men, There is a difference.I Believe in Love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IgUos8YKG9k

For My Brothers and Sisters coming behind me, I know it is not easy but being true to yourself is worth the battle...And if they are not doing the 4 F's don't even give them a second thought. Because Living your life in honesty is an incredable journey...Not easy but incredable....


This weeks JazzLover Recomendations!!!

Camille Yarbrough " The Iron Pot Cooker" Please get this before it goes out of print.....Take a listen Men and women....Why does it always come out Mad!!!!
This is my favorite Cuts!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WLC9PnefeEI

Love this one too
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NnrToEgTMK4

Now the truth
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ugjXmsOpks&feature=related

Truth!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Fe74mFOxUk&feature=related

Now Miss Della Reese.. From the cd "The Angel Sings"

My New Theme song!! It took me a while to get heere..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IgUos8YKG9k

Oh Yes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4EsZ84Q08g&feature=related

This is where I am now.....Don't settle for less

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4EsZ84Q08g&feature=related

Well Jazzlovers

Until next time I have no idea where this journey will take me but come back!!

Keep The Beat....

DW JazzLover